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Applause I’m a thousand different people, every single one is real

I’ve a million different feelings, OK but at least I feel!

And I feel rotten, yet covered with roses

Younger than springtime and older than Moses

But alive, but alive, but alive!

“BUT ALIVE” (From Applause)

Lyrics Lee Adams/Music Charles Strouse ©1970

I took a road trip the other day, a few hundred miles up to the mountains.  I needed a little quiet, a little break from the noise.  A cabin in Tahoe where there is no Internet and no TV to speak of.  No updates on Sarah Palin’s “genius” career move.  No magazine subscriptions arriving in the mail containing partially nude photos of Levi Johnston.  No Michael Jackson retrospectives, no quick, but unfortunate glimpses of Rush Limbaugh, Dick Cheney or Governor Sanford as I speed date through five hundred channels. 

AHHHH!!!  Two days later I am a new person.  Refreshed.  Focused.  Ready to take on the world.  Okay, so I’m a little manic, operating on only three or four hours of sleep a night.  But the truth is, that’s all I need sometimes.  Why do I continue to try and live under other people’s circadian rhythms?  

From now on I will embrace the dark, working well past midnight, or dive into the day, even though it’s only four AM.  

Perhaps I am enjoying the mood because of a spell I was put under during the drive, thanks to XM radio.  I was tuned into a Broadway musical station for a short while (God there have been some bad shows) when they played Lauren Bacall singing “But Alive,” from Applause.  Now I loved it because she can’t sing for shit, but here she is, on the Broadway stage, in a musical.  The star of the musical.  (note: this might seem contradictory to my comments about people not deserving fame, but the woman “earned” her celebrity as an actress years ago.)  Not long after that they played some song from “Hairspray” with Harvey Fierstein on vocals.  Now I love Harvey, but he can’t sing either.  In fact, compared to Harvey, Lauren has a great voice.  (note: Harvey also “earned” his celebrity long before he was staring in musicals.)  But I digress.

My point (does there really have to be a point?) is that I was energized by hearing “But Alive.”  Not only is it peppy and uplifting, it’s got a great message.  A message that I also found hysterical.  Me, driving alone in my car trying to balance out my moods and listening to Lauren Bacall singing (rasping) about multiple personalities.  

If it isn’t already, I officially nominate it for the Bipolar Anthem, to be played at all conferences, seminars, meetings, therapy sessions, or any damn time we feel like it.

So, here are the lyrics.  Just watch the first couple of minutes of the video.  After that it gets kind of weird and requires all kinds of disclaimers about portrayals of homosexuals (kind of “Boys in the Band” meets “All about Eve”).  ‘Nuff said. 

I feel groggy and weary and tragic

Punchy and bleary and fresh out of magic

But alive, but alive, but alive!

I feel twitchy and bitchy and manic

Calm and collected and choking with panic

But alive, but alive, but alive!

 

I’m a thousand different people, every single one is real

I’ve a million different feelings, OK but at least I feel!

And I feel rotten, yet covered with roses

Younger than springtime and older than Moses

But alive, but alive, but alive!

 

I feel wicked and wacky and mellow

Firm as Gibraltar and shaky as Jello

But alive, but alive, but alive!

I feel half Tijuana, half Boston

Partly Jane Fonda and partly Jane Austen

But alive, that’s the thing, but alive!

 

This kaleidoscope of feelings whirls around inside my brain

I admit I’m slightly cuckoo, but it’s dull to be too sane!

And I feel brilliant and brash and bombastic

Limp as a puppet and simply fantastic

Frisky as a lamb, lazy as a clam

Crazy but I am … alive!

 

This kaleidoscope of feelings whirls around inside my brain

I admit I’m slightly cuckoo, but it’s dull to be too sane!

And I feel brilliant! Bombastic! Super! Fantastic!

Alive! Alive! Alive! Alive!

“BUT ALIVE” (From Applause)

Lyrics Lee Adams/Music Charles Strouse ©1970

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